So thankful for the recovery time. Our dear friends Fred and Hope came as back up this round. It was amazing to have help with cooking, cleaning, and loving on the boys. Symptoms with this last round seemed less severe, lightened by the company and support. We even were able to get out for some fresh air.

As I transition into this next phase of the journey with cancer treatments, it has been difficult to fully grasp the past 6 months. I have realized that it’s okay to keep some distance from my experience; to keep up hope, keep moving forward, and keep from letting the current physical or emotional strains taking hold or taking over. At moments the weight of it all can hit and I rely more heavily on those who have chosen to walk this path with me; there for the good parts, the hard parts, and the emotional roller coaster. It gets hard and messy, and maybe, one day, I will be able to evaluate this all from the other side with my trusted friends and amazing therapist. For now, we are continuing to walk forward , winging it, taking it a step at a time.

Glimmers come through pounds of cookies! Hugs and warm moments. Sunshine after three days of rain. Epic playground sessions that include space travel. Snow capped mountain views. A 7 year old that just read his new favorite 200+ page novel in two days. Smiles and giggles that accompany a two year old’s curiosity. Beautifully written children’s books that are built on imagination. Savoring the good moments. Back to my daily walks. NOT having chemo Monday.

Mantras:

Trust in the Universe. Go straight for the liver. See the beauty.

Music:

Justin Timberlake, “Can’t stop the feeling”